Went to see the senior high musical last night ( The king and I). Lala was in it. Cool beans. We went to houlihans afterwards and ate ice cream and chicken.
grrrr methinks my interim grades aren't going to be that good. If my grades are lower than the ones that were on my report card, then I'm not allowed to try out for the play next year. Although i'm not incredibly worried. My report card sucked.
I want comments on this blogger thing but somehow it will NEVER work! I've tried it like a million times. I hate my computer. It also won't let me run AIM when other things are open >_<. It needs to die. I think i might end up killing it. Dad always talks about getting a new one but we never do. I think its because someone needs to break it so we HAVE to get a new one. I'm going to find a sledgehammer now.

Near miracle happened in math. I have an 87. Now where the hell did that come from? I apparently understood the last test more than I thought.
Sometimes I don't think i know myself very well. Everytime i think i figured my mind out someone comes a long and tells me things that I do and I realize they're right. My dad says I shouldn't try to understand, I should just "be". A bit on the cryptic side, but it seems doing that would be a lot easier. I realize that the reason im not myself around a lot of people is that I've become overcomftorble in my social situation of not really being mass hated by a specific group of people. Having friends in every sector of the school takes tolls on you sometimes. I never truly give up any of my personality traits, but I have to tone a few down for certain people. It sucks at times, but its also a hell of a lot easier than putting up with constantly being made fun of, which was the case before I hit junior high. I think my main problem is i can't let go of friendships i don't want for one reason or another, because i can't find any grounds to do it on. I don't think i've had a real fight with a friend for a good 4 years.
Lately i've been getting better at controlling this though. My mind felt a bit more clear for the first time in ages today. I think i only talked to people i felt like talking to today. My friend Danielle has been really depressed lately. I told her I could relate a little bit, but I really don't think she believes me. It's difficult for a lot of people to imagine me depressed for some reason.
"I try to daydream, but my mind keeps wandering"-Steven Wright
I think im going to start having a quote of the day if i can remember to do it.

Too much homework, too little to do it w/. I have a science quiz and a Social Studies test tommorow. Neither of those books are with me at the moment :-/. Mr Lennon might let me out of the test, but the quiz would definetely be my fault because i was supposed to have studied for it on tues. I already cheesed out of it once because i wasn't there on monday. Too many thoughts zooming through my head. I feel like having some unexplained anger let out. Usually i scream at a bucket that i trip over a lot or do something to something else that annoys me, but it's too late and i'd wake up my parents. hmm maybe i'll throw that cholestrol spread that made me sick the other day against the wall..that would actually relieve a lot of stress. No it wouldn't, who am i kidding. I'm trying to get thoughts out of my mind and creating more in the process. I hate math more than words can express. I have to go to clinic tommorow morning because it just doesn't make any freaking sense. The clinic people suck at times because i take a weird math course for the folk who dropped honors last year. Crap crap crap im drowning. !!!I NEED TO FIND FIVE POEMS FOR ENGLISH I JUST REMEMBERED GAAHHH I'M SCREWED! Off to find some poetry now.
"Don't think of it as losing a brother, think of it as gaining a delicious corpse!"-The Positive Pals

Doctor coop says im virusy. Hopefully i'll feel better by tommorow. i want to go to school. seriously, i do. I hate missing art. That makes me angry. Art days are the only really good school days, unless they're showing a movie or something.
Mind is kind of clogged up at the moment. One of those days where i start thinking about thinking and then i can't remember what i just thought because i was thinking too hard in like jibberish or..jeez there it goes again.. Anyway i need to eat some pudding. Im glad its night. Right now i dont' think i'd be able to deal with the sun.

Im still sick but i didn't stay home today. I thought i was getting better, but im actually a lot worse. My mom thinks it isn't just about the butter anymore. She says i have a sinus infection because my face hurts and my stomach is acting stupid. That actually sounds about right. My head feels like it's going to esplode. I can't even watch american idol my head hurts so bad. Now for me thats a sign of true sickness. Blarggh i have so much homework to do and i can't do it because i am in mud-brain mode. Pain. Too much pain. Worried about ru. I don't think im going to skool tommorow, i need to see doctor cooper. Cool guy except for the time he made me get that spinal tap. But even during that episode he visited me in the hospital every day.
Gug caught between personal health and grades. Kind of go hand in hand when my parents are the way they are. They prefer psycological damage to physical grounding. Thats what i get for not going out a lot. Blarggh i think i have a curse associated with the high school musical. Last year i got a sinus infection when we went to see Annie. I hope im better by the time the king and i comes around on fri, cuz i shelled out 7$ for my ticket..

OK I am home sick today. You may wonder why because I sounded perfectly fine when i posted the blog on the same morning, but about 20 min after that this freaking EVIL butter spread my mom bought started making me really freaking nauseous! I thought it was going to go away, so when my dad asked what was wrong when he gave me my lunch money i was like "O im feeling nauseous all the sudden, but it should go away if i just sit down for awhile". Sounds reasonable right? HA! I was freaking dry heaving over a trashcan after ten minutes of sitting! This is the sickest I have ever been without throwing up! I limped downstairs to find dad or mom, but of course they were both gone because dad leaves for work early and mom had district chorus today! Crap crap crap! At this point i couldn't even stand up! I crawled to the phone and beeped my dad. He called back about a minute later. Luckily he wasn't far from the house. He came back to find me fetalized in the spare bed room with a bucket next to the bed. Of course i never actually used it because making use out of my helltrip to the laundry room to get it would be too rewarding. Freaking murphy's law. My brother wins the captain oblivious award for today. He didn't even notice this whole thing happening and he was there the whole time! He's prolly gonna come home today like "O, you were home sick today?".
So! Take note-TAKE CONTROL LOW CHOLESTROL SPREAD. Bad shit! Evil! Bad! Sucky sucky suckitty suck suck!

Good morning folks, and welcome to the 6:15 am show! I am your host, Hannah Sutin with todays news. First of all, I am up this early because I took a shower this morning. That sounds pretty stupid, but i need to explain it first.
Okay, I am a NIGHT shower person, because to take a shower in the morning i need to get up ultra early otherwise I can't get out the door in time because I am a slow showerer. If i do take a shower in the morning, one of two things will happen. a)I will get out of the shower and be extremely sluggish for the rest of the morning, getting out of the door at a normal time b) be energized by the shower and get ready in 20 min leaving me with nothing to do for an hour at 6:15. Guess which one happened! At least my hair isn't greasy and I actually have other things to talk about.
Like this! I went to see charly last nite! And Sage was there! I ended up getting assigned a seat right behind him (insert twilight zone music) (Insert Dave Mathews band for no reason). I hit it off pretty well with Sage's friends. Now if i could just remember their freaking names!
Charly was awesome because she is! Also! Her sister was in it, which is why Sage and co. were there. At the end they were all like "Allison!" and i was like "CHARLY!" real loud so i could yell over them.
Ok, the musical itself was pretty cool. I gotta admit, that would be the only way I could understand a biblical story. You need pretty colors and singing bible folk. Now that i think of it, that's probably why the prince of egypt appealed to me so much. Seriously tho, that musical was like a cross between the bible and yellow submarine! People were running around with cow masks and corn hats and there was a disco ball and there was a big multicolored sign that said "Joseph". Awesomeness, all they were missing was a beach ball. O and when i wrote about it the other day, i missed part of the title. It's Joseph and the AMAZING technicolor dreamcoat. It wasn't really amazing like charly was amazing, but i would give it "Joseph and the pretty freaking cool technicolor dreamcoat". It was cool in context only though. Anyone wearing it outside the theater besides me, molly rose, and maybe my brothers friend maxi, would probably be immediately pegged "Gay Batman".
I was wondering why i couldn't write much about little shop of horrors yesterday, then i realized that i forgot two things that happened. First! I walked into the crowd and saw Kleba talking to my parents. I walked up behind them to listen and got Kleba saying "Yeah, well she's good doing whatever she does helping out or in the play" :-D! Kleba loves me bwahaha.
Also! Yesterday when the plant burped after eating seymour, it was me, Bryant Spitco, and Adam Jack. Together we made a mighty burp. I told my dad that one of the burpers was me and he said he was proud. Mind you, he didn't say he was proud when i got only 3 B's on my report card on the first marking period. So my dad has confusing morals. What else is new?

Waaaahh the shows over. That was so much fun. Yesterday was possibly one of the best days of my life. We had both of the shows (which were AMAZING). Sage got to come to the second one after months of imprisonment by his mom. Good thing it was raining, the sun might have blinded him. And we had the in-between party and the paper plate awards. The paper plate awards are when they do this whole award thing with these paper plates painted gold. They have categories for most dedicated, and most likely to play with a ball of yarn for hours on end. Then they'll have like 5 or 6 nominees and a winner. I won best line memorizer :-D. Last year i got best model runway walk. It's good to know that people recognize my supreme talents.
We had a KILLER after party at Bucca de Beppo. I ate pizza and macaroni and garlic bread and ravioli until i nearly esploded! Good stuff man, good stuff. The whole place was singing at one point! We all sang the little shop of horrors theme for the party next to us. We also were singing the hokey pokey and that's amore and other classics. I took a lot of pictures. Hopefully the rite aid idiots are printing them. Otherwise i may have to leave frogs in their shoes.
Also! I am going to Beth Shalom tonight to see Charly Klinman in Joseph and the Technicolor Dreamcoat. That is because Charly is awesome! Damn i have this Ultra difficult math project due tho.. god i hate how math manages to ruin everything..
Also! I cannot for the LIFE of me get the comments thing on this blog to work! Ru tried to get me through it, but it isn't working still because it SUCKS! That is all.